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Okay so this entry is going to contain important and non-important stuff. I'll put the important stuff first in case you lose interest.

Important Stuff

So, uh, for those of you who've ever talked to me on AIM, it's pretty obvious that I love to hide behind my away message. Mainly this is to avoid a specific person (none of you guys) who will bug the crap out of me.

However, it's also because I'm super shy. I love talking on AIM, but I never IM anyone because I have such a fear that I'm going to bother someone. I like all of you guys and I really do want to talk on AIM more, but I don't IM anyone first because of the fear of bothering you. If I ever do get the courage to IM you, then chances are I have nothing interesting to talk about (well, I could bombard you with my constant fangirling, but I'm sure that would get reaaaaal old), and the conversation dies fast, and I generally blame myself for being such a bore.

Believe it or not, there was a time when I almost never put my away message up, where I actually IMed people first. Back when I was, what, 12 years old, and a member (and moderator lol) of ZeldaPower.com, I generally IMed the newcomers and we became friends that way. (Ironically enough I haven't talked to most of them in years.) Or even if they weren't new, I'd often IM them first. It was pretty awesome. I don't really know what happened, though. Somewhere over my teenage years (long after I had left that forum, lol), I kind of stopped doing that. A lot of people would be like, "I'm busy :|" and I'd blame myself for annoying them, when in reality, if they were busy and didn't have an away message up, it's their frickin' fault.

So anyway, my point is, I like you guys and really do want to talk to you on AIM more, but you probably don't get that impression since I never IM you. I'm just extremely shy and very afraid of bothering you. Even when I call people on the phone, I'm usually quite hesitant because I'm afraid of bothering them.

So yeah. I'll make an effort to IM you more. If the conversation dies within like two minutes because I have nothing interesting to say, then I apologize. I could start fangirling over Phoenix/Edgeworth or something to fill in the awkward silence, but I really don't think you'd like that, lol.

Okay I'm done talking about important stuff.

Not Important Stuff

I created an avatar for myself on that website thingy since safety_caesars did and I'm a memewhore. So yeah. Here I am in all my hideousness.



I'm not really sure why I gave myself a cigarette. I only really smoke when I'm drunk, which isn't too often.

So I remembered the dream I had last night. In my earlier entry (lol this is my third entry today... sorry), I mentioned that I had a dream about Dissidia. Well now I remember what happened.

So basically, in some part of the dream, I was Squall. Yes, Squall: the annoying emo-kid and the second worst FF protagonist ever. (Worst is Tidus. Third worst is Cloud. I'm probably offending so many people right now.)

So yeah, I was Squall, and at some point, I was in this house or building or something, where I discovered this back room that was completely soundproof. In the room were two stoners who strangely resembled Jay and Silent Bob, and they locked the door and we proceeded to get extremely high off of pot. Except we smoked the pot out of macaroni noodles. I kid you not.

I'm not really sure what happened next, except that I was afraid people would find us, although the other two assured me that they wouldn't. Then later on they somehow ended up dead, and since I was in the room, I would obviously be the prime suspect for their murder. So basically, since I was convinced nobody would find the room, I stayed on the couch, but someone finally walked in, and I pretended to be asleep, which somehow convinced them that I didn't kill those two people.

What does this have to do with Dissidia so far? I have no idea, but I'm getting on with the story.

So yeah, then I realized that I could no longer use that hidden room as a party area (???) since someone discovered it, but then I discovered another door that led to a giant upstairs room that resembled an empty Wal-Mart. Somehow the two stoners magically came back to life and we turned the room into an extreme party central, where the Dissidia part comes into play.

At this point, I was no longer Squall. I'm pretty sure I was just myself or something. I discovered Bartz's TRUE origin, which was not FFV, but was in fact a really weird NES game where the little 8-bit Bartz had a really creepy grin on his face and ran around picking random stuff up. Picture some sort of weird cross between A Boy and His Blob and Super Mario Bros. 2 and maybe you'll get a similar image. So yeah, I played the game, but it turned out Xande was actually the villain in that (and not Exdeath... *sad face*), so then I obviously started slashing Xande and Bartz. (My mind is a weird place. Why do I always have to slash the hero and the villain?)

Then I'm pretty sure after that a bunch of the FF characters appeared in the party central. I remember the FF3 cast being there, and maybe some of the FF6, FF5, and FF2 people. (Gee, I RPed people from all those games. Maybe that's why?) But I remember Xande was there and he somehow turned over to the good side, and some random little girl gave him a hug and he was pretty much twitching with a "Must... not... kill..." look on his face. Then he became BFFs with the FF3 heroes, but then he left and turned evil again. Or something.

That's all I can recall at the moment. Now that I think about it, that actually had absolutely nothing to do with Dissidia. Just because it's an FF crossover doesn't mean it's Dissidia, people. It obviously means it's Kingdom Hearts. Wait.

So as you can see, my mind is weird and I dream about Final Fantasy too much.